~ just the two of us ~

But you can choose to resist the discouragement. Say, “God help me get my eyes off the problem—off the circumstance—and keep my eyes on You..”

Amen!

Posted in: cell, chit chat, feelings, friends on 14 May 2009 at at 6:40 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Hahah.. yup.. work has taken a toll on me (especially my health) for at least the past one month. More so in the past 2 weeks. Customer complaints, screenings, increased inspections, reports to be sent out.... Stress, stress, stress...

For this week, my colleagues and customer have told me to go slow.. remember to calm myself down.. hehe.. am trying to do so.. Probably I should have one big poster on my office wall stating "CALM DOWN!!" to remind myself everyday. And to take a breather once in a while.

It's also a stressful week for hubby as his exams are on this whole week, so study week this week. I can see that it's certainly not an easy course, and sometimes I wonder why we push ourselves too much or too hard? Certainly, there should be more than this right?

I know I have not been going back to basics; J-E-S-U-S. I relied on my own strength, and not on His. And I wanted everything to be in my own plan, my own timing, my own this and that. I had a hard time to "let go" of myself and "let God". In the midst of my busy-ness, I was reading ODB at work today (yeah, I subscribed it daily to be sent to my work-mail), and at the end of the whole devotion, it wrote, "God is the master of turning burdens into blessings".

I felt a sudden relieve as I read that.. coz all this while I know I have been strifing.. but for what??? for nothing... Sigh.. As such, I need to take time off to get back to basics... For those of you who have faithfully lent me a ear.. you know what I'm ranting on.. Hehe.. thanks a lot for the great advice, for the shoulder to cry on, and especially to hubby for being just there for letting me let out everything when I know he's busy having his exams... hahaha.. Looking forward to a real break.... :)

Posted in: chit chat, feelings on 13 May 2009 at at 10:28 pm 0 kay-pohs  

I miss home. *sob sob*. I had some time adjusting getting use to taking trains and buses when I reached Spore. Hehe.. 10 days of driving around in the comfort of the car.. ahhh.. and also staying at my parents' place when Jason wasn't around. And also going to my in-laws place in Segamat. nice... It was truly a break that I needed.

I missed the cooking "lessons" I had with my aunt... Enjoyed every moment of it. Who says being a housewife is easy??? I had aches all over the next morning when I woke up. Imagine the hours of preparing and standing on your two feet while cooking and preparing the dishes. Hehehe...

I miss playing with Philo. She's really grown, her fur is sooooo nice and golden now...

The times when I played catch with her as well as training her to "stay" at her place and not moving. Anyway, on the day we came back from Segamat and before leaving for Spore, I dropped by mum's place and found out she broke the flower-pot. She had a yelling in the morning from mum I guess, and no wonder I saw she was extremely quiet when I went home for awhile. She didn't bark at all. Hehehe.. Smart dog..
She'll be one year come April.. I think she has reached her "size". Just love her dreamy eyes and her doggy attitude. It surprises me at times. :P

When I was back at my in-laws place, how I miss the durians! But there was none. *sad*. We had steam-boat though. Hehehe....

Well, being at home for 10 days and meeting up with different ppl with different walks of life.. makes me ponder what is God's will for me...

I miss home... I really do... but at the same time, I missed Spore as well...Basically it's more of the daily routine as well as church friends! Miss hanging out with them after church service.. Kakaka.. Well, this whole thing contradicts myself, huh? Ah well..... I am so looking forward to this Friday... :)

Posted in: chit chat, feelings, friends, home sweet home on 24 March 2009 at at 11:05 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Okokok.. no, I'm not planning to have a baby now.... perhaps next year.... ok? so, clear?

Posted in: chit chat, family, feelings on 27 October 2008 at at 10:49 pm 3 kay-pohs  

Next, we left to go chill at Tzang's office.. Had a surprise cake for Jason... I tumpang.. hahaha..I just love his office at Raffles Tower....Something like Google... It has just a whole floor for the employees to chill.. they have this:

Posted in: Birthdays, feelings, food, friends, Happenings on 25 October 2008 at at 11:19 am 2 kay-pohs  

I truly had a wonderful birthday today.... Shall blog about it soon.

Posted in: Birthdays, chit chat, feelings, friends on 16 October 2008 at at 11:27 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Posted in: chit chat, family, feelings, food, Philo, photos on 4 October 2008 at at 11:50 am 0 kay-pohs  

Looking at kids around me... and preggie moms... makes me feel so..... sigh.. not sure how to describe the feeling.. but really... I really want a kid now! Yes, I mean it... Now!

Okokok... looking on the brighter side, still have hubby's "baby" to keep me company while he is busy with his classes... yup.. talking about his PS3. Hehehe....So, hopefully it could keep me company and would not be bored of it till next year.. Kakakaka....

Posted in: chit chat, feelings on 28 September 2008 at at 11:00 pm 1 kay-pohs  

Met up with Fay this afternoon at Plaza Sing. She looks real good. Mummy and baby doing real fine. Already 7.5 months. Tummy showing bigger and appetite good too. Well, she was telling me that she really enjoys the journey before the baby is born. (even though she had serious nausea when she was about 4-5 mths preggie). But what comes after that, she's not sure. Hahaha. I guess she hasn't really thought much about it yet. After that, she stretched her blouse and I saw her tummy moving! Oh my goodness! It really sent shivers to my spine. Very geli, at the same time, kinda exciting. Her babe has always been active, right from the time Lavi's wedding, I could feel him moving around in her tummy.

Pretty amazing. I can imagine the feeling of the mum-to-be when the baby moves inside of her. Haha. I'm getting pretty excited myself. Haha. Waiting patiently for the day to come... :P

Till then, back to work everyone!!! :(

Posted in: chit chat, feelings on 8 September 2008 at at 12:02 am 4 kay-pohs  

Yep, talking abt my baby bro... Alas, after 6 years he has finally grad. Hehe. Was up in Cyberjaya that Sunday, a day trip with my parents. Hehe. It was nice catching up with my aunts and lil cousin too....

Posted in: chit chat, family, feelings on 27 August 2008 at at 10:23 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Not too long ago, I did post an article on what is the number 1 reason people leave the company; their managers. Yup. It's because of their managers. And I thought that everything was falling into place when I switched over to this new place because of the boss. He's a believer, and not only a manager, but he's a friend to all of us. Very gila (crazy), just like us... sometimes, even more. Hahaha. I'm not complaining about him, but I'm just sad that through the current re-org that the company is going through, I will be transferred to another entity (something like a business unit) like from company 1A to company 1B. Still under company 1, but different entities, A & B. And, through this re-org, I'll be reporting to another boss come 1st Oct.

People said I'm great in adapting to changes. (I mean looking from the time I got married, then moving on to Spore in less than 4 months after marriage, then change to another job within a year here in Spore)... I mean, I'm not sure how much these changes affects me. To tell you the truth, I hate changes. Totally. Just that I have no choice, but I have to learn to embrace changes. And now with Jason about 80% busy with his classes, it's another new change for me.

In less than 3 months in the new company, I've learned that I have to switch bosses. I thought I was not affected mentally. But it did. It really did. Because, first, I was just trying to settle in to the whole new environment, and most importantly, p-e-o-p-l-e. And when just I'm about to do that, I have to go through another change. It's very rare that you get a boss who is a believer, and who walks his talks and ultimately, protects his people under him. All these 3 months I was going through hard time with customers, and internal people, he was there for us. Mentally, emotionally and most times, spiritually (He encourages us by forwarding daily Bible verses via email).

Ok, ok, I'm not complaining about the new manager, but sigh.... it's just different. Yes, I've seen the new manager, and he seems to be an ok guy, but he's more of the "work" person. Very work-oriented person.

Sometimes I question HIM, "Why me? When I just thought YOU have given me this job, the people around me, and now, another change?? It has been a trial time for me the past 3 months, and now it's like adding salt to the wound..."


I would still be at the same place. My new boss would be based in another plant. So I still get to hang out with my current colleagues and boss. I hope things don't change too fast. I'm not able to cope. And this is when, I really just give up and surrender all to Him. I can't cope up with my own strength, but I know I can with His as it's in His Word, "I can do ALL things, through Christ that strengthens me". (Phillipians 4:13) "...and those who HOPE in the Lord will RENEW their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:31) Amen!

Posted in: chit chat, feelings, work on 17 August 2008 at at 12:25 am 0 kay-pohs  

Posted in: chit chat, feelings on 14 August 2008 at at 6:24 pm 0 kay-pohs  

The thing: An interview.
When? : Tomorrow.
Time?: 2pm.
one word to describe how I feel: anxious, nervous, jittery.

Please pray for me... to keep my cool, ultimately, to surrender it up to Him, to let everything be according to His will. Actually, I shouldn't be having all those feelings described above since I've been to like 3 interviews within the first quarter of the year. :P
But not this one. No, no, have been aiming for this for rather a long time...And when the HR called, it took me awhile to realize that YES! it's them! Woo Hoo! I literally gave up hope on this application a long time ago...

Will update the results tomorrow. Am trying NOT to get my hopes to high though, just in case He wants me to stay in my trials & tribulations that I'm facing right now. Hehehe. But looking through the past 3 months (btw, I've just been confirmed last Friday :P), how He has miraculously answered our (my colleagues) prayers, and now this.... I'm just speechless... totally amazed at what we thought is impossible, to Him, it's NOT.

So, wish me the best and do pray for me... thanks!

Posted in: chit chat, feelings, work on 30 July 2008 at at 9:32 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Going through lots of changes at work lately. A lot as in a re-org, an interview for a new project (internal transfer).. and if I get accepted, I would have to pack my bags and leave for Switzerland by mid Aug for 2 months of intensive training and do a project transfer here by Oct. All these are happening too fast. I'm only in the job for 3 months. Different. No more handling chips. But big bulky machines. So-not-my-field.

And right now, I'm just about to grasp the whole mechanical stuffs that I'm currently doing. And now, a bigger and more complex project. This will mean extra commitment, intensive working hours (not 24 hrs on call though).... but in long run, I believe, this could be the future of tomorrow's industry. Looking at the pics of the whole project scares me. It's huge. Like a monster. :P

There were thoughts in me to actually quit. (Yes, my darling hubs gave me the green light and ask me to take a break and rest in Malacca while taking my time to look for another job :D) The current stress and environment that I'm in just push that thought to me. But I guess, I shall just persevere on to see what He has in store for me.

I can only leave it to God. I'm not sure what I want. Part of me wants to stay where I am now. But another part of me wants to move on. One factor of stress will be eliminated when I move on, but there may be lots of new factors of stress that I may have when I move on. Well, I'm hoping it's purely work stress and not people stress. So I'm not sure what to pray for, but all I can say that "All to Jesus, I surrender all." Let His will be done in my life. Amen?! Thanks to my cell leader for lending me her ears and taking time to pray for me during this period.. :)

Posted in: chit chat, feelings, work on 17 July 2008 at at 5:41 pm 2 kay-pohs  

Yes, I really missed her. She's so fun, though she kept on biting my feet, toes, fingers, and anything else her mouth could get on to, to ease the "itchiness" of her gum as she's teething right now.

She's just soooo adorable! Sigh.. And I can see mum's rather "attached" to her too.. This is the first time a dog has ever stepped foot into my parents' house. Hahaha. My dad dislikes dogs, but looking at Philo and her funny antics (not to mention very smart ones too!) it's so hard not to like her.... I did see a smile on dad's face when she gave her "10-cent" face when mum scolded her. Mum's been telling me everyday about her funny antics. I wished I didn't have to go back to Segamat. I wished I could stay longer to play with her. I know the next time round, I might not see her already, as Auds will be bringing her back to KL.

I hope mum gets one too. Hahaha. She said it's quite a stress-reliever after a hard day's work. She's so manja too at times. She has the cute eyes of a cocker, nice fur like a retriever, and ears abit like the cocker.. and brains? Both! She's just so smart! And only at 2 months! My cousin taught her some tricks, like to sit, and to paw. And she could do it. Mum and I tried to teach her how to roll... But I guess she's still young, don't know how to roll. Hahaha... Ah.. missing her...

Posted in: chit chat, family, feelings, Happenings, home sweet home, Philo on 7 July 2008 at at 6:28 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Yup, I went to cell just now, and what a surprise.. we had 11 members in total.. a rather big group.. no wonder we're in the plan for multiplication in October.. getting excited.. it's gonna be the 2nd multiplication since we came here... Praise the Lord!

And another surprise was when I came home..I went for cell alone, as hubs had to visit a friend whose wife just gave birth today..(not mentioning the number of people having the same birth date today!)..and.. when I came home, I was happily talking to hubs and sharing to him what we did at cell and suddenly I saw something on my lappy.. something was amiss.. something which I have not seen since our courting days... a nice and rosy bouquet of flowers!!! And a handmade card from him.. hehehe... It was really a surprise as I didn't expect it.. and the occasion? It's our fifth "pak-tor" anniversary.. It's been 5 years.. time passes so fast.. 3 years + of courtship and close to 2 years of marriage... and I'm looking forward to more anniversaries with hubs.. *wink wink* Thanks dear..


And yeah, just a note to wish my maid-of-honor, "BLESSED BIRTHDAY" , girl!! May God bless you heaps! Hehehe.. :)

Posted in: cell, chit chat, feelings, friends, pretty things on 24 June 2008 at at 11:46 pm 4 kay-pohs  

Last week, we celebrated parents day at Trinity. Unfortunately, we were not able to go home to celebrate with our parents... sigh.. I miss home like mad! It's been a month since we went back. Ps. Naomi Dowdy, our resident apostle prayed for all the parents in the church, and I claimed every promises and blessings that she prayed for, for both our parents.

Last month, I was back for mom's day.. but that was coincidentally coincided with a friend's wedding.. I got her gift, and she was glad. I'm glad when she's glad. :) Mum being mums, sometimes need to show them that we appreciate them and love them.. by giving them something.. even a card or flowers will make their day...

Whereas, on the other hand, dads are rather simple. Just a simple wish, I guess it does make a difference. I called up to wish dad a blessed dad's day.. and end up he asking me how am I doing over here... Well, being here in Spore made me appreciate their presence more and more. And though our bickering have lessen tremendously since I was here, we still do have clash of opinions at times. Haha.. (That's because he helps me out with taking care of the house & bills and what not).. Since young, he was very strict with us. Though mum was a disciplinarian many times, if dad comes in to discipline, then my brother and I are both goners. :P

As we grow up, and now, for me out of the house, I tend to appreciate them more and see them in a different "light". (If my bro is seeing this, he will disagree with this statement... guess cause he's still living under the same roof as them). When Jason & I were courting, I remembered dad was rather strict with us... And I'm glad he was because I knew he cared. (If I don't remember wrongly, during Bill Gothard's BLS, he mentioned that dads and brothers should protect the daughters/sisters, and whoever wants to court them must first seek permission from the father of the girl).. Hehehe.. of course, we went for the seminar after we started courting. Kekeke.. good excuse for escape.

They still do nag at us, but for me, lessened very much. :) And, I just want to thank God for placing me under this family that He has ordained me to. They have been great parents and I wouldn't want them to change their ways if I was given the chance to turn back time. They have taught us, and laid the foundation well for both my brother and I.. to love God no matter what happens... and teaching us according to His ways.. that we might not astray...Though at times I know they might have failed in some ways, but hey, tell me who is perfect? I pray that God will continue to bless them in every aspects of their lives, whether spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically....

As for my father-in-law (FIL), I also thank God for Him as Jason is able to seek him for advise and is like his personal buddy.... He has been a great role model for Jason.. And may God bless Him too.. Also to my mum-in-law (MIL), God bless her.. she really feeds us well each time she sees us or when we're back in Segamat... Hehehe.. And not forgetting the yummy-licious birds nest she cooks for us each time we're in Segamat and also for the past few times she posted the birds nest through Jason's younger brother to Spore. Though she's still a pre-believer, we're believing in faith that God is able to speak to her, through us and that her life will be touched, and convicted and finally to accept Him as her personal Lord & Saviour.

I didn't mention about our grandparents here as it might take another long read.. hehehe.. but I want to thank God for them too.. both, my grandma and Jason's grandparents.... May God bless them too...

Posted in: chit chat, family, feelings on 21 June 2008 at at 10:25 am 0 kay-pohs  

Yes!!! My holidays are finally coming nearer... really looking forward to it ever since I signed up for the camp... Pictures above is the place that we'll be staying during the camp... Holiday Inn Regent Beach Cha-Am, Thailand. After a long and stressful week... seriously need the time to relax myself physically and just soak in His presence... :) Yes.. about 1000 of us signed up for the camp.. and Amazingly, their ballroom can fit max. of 1500 people. Coolness!

I already have a few orders of the crackers (tahi anjing - dog poo) to be brought back. Kekeke. And also, colleagues have been telling me that brassieres there are very cheap and of good quality (Wacoal)...So ok.. all these I shall note.. hehehe...

Cha-Am is about 3 hours drive from Bangkok. After the camp, we're extending a night in Bangkok for shopping and sight-seeing.. yes.. you bet.. shopping! Hehehehe.....


Yes.. it was really a stressful week with conference call everyday as we have issues now... Today was so far the worst.. We got it left, right, up, and down from the customer from this issue (not to me indirectly because I'm still new.. but the rest of my colleagues did..) and even escalated this to my plant manager. *phew*.... But before I left, boss called both my colleague and I.... I thought it's something to do with my program.. But it was not.. he just asked us if we wanted to participate in an evaluation test for mobile phones... Sony Ericsson... Our factory in Beijing is building the mobile phones and this model is set to come down to Spore soon.. So they're asking us to do an eval for one week on its application since we're in QA. I was like.. WOW! COOL! Anytime man.. We even have to get a new SIM card to get the 2 different networks... Can't wait till I come back from Thailand on Friday.. hehehehe... But of course, after the eval, we have to give back the phones :( hopefully we can keep them.. :P


Boss dropped me off at the MRT station as I had to meet with LMF & HM for dinner at Shokudo, Raffles City.. (Yups, again, and I just love the udon! The spicy soup is just superb!). He just told me not to worry about work and go and enjoy my holidays and also church camp. Praise the Lord for an understanding boss.. it's a bonus for me.. :)

So, won't be blogging for a week.. till then.. have a nice day everyone and Trinitarians... see you guys in Thailand! WooHoo!

Posted in: chit chat, feelings, Happenings, travel on 31 May 2008 at at 12:09 am 2 kay-pohs  

Dealing with demanding customers & stubborn suppliers =

Dealing with office politics which involves relationships =

That's how I'm feeling right now. For stress #1 I find it still manageable.. as after all, I knew what I was getting myself into before accepting the job... And no, don't get me wrong.. I have great support from my manager to ensure this task of mine is executed.. And though, customers are demanding.. but in actual fact, they're quite nice.. as they understand our position sometimes..

But stress # 2 is something that I really can't tolerate.. especially when it involves people who's sharing the same faith as I do. I am indirectly affected (the worse one is my boss, poor him), and yet, I feel the stress.... I pray for God's wisdom and favour to be upon me each time I am on my way to work, spending some TAWG (time alone with God), on how to deal with this kind of stress... giving me the right words to say, and guide me in my actions, especially when one of them is reporting to me...

This explains why I guess I have been in the "spiritual desert", the past few weeks... The situation is really eating me inside out.. until when I recalled BuckTooth telling me about someone who accepted a better job offer and he got busier at work, then he eventually stopped going to church and following Him. I'm just so afraid that I might fall into that similar situation, that, it made me stop and think that I should do something about my spiritual-desert situation. This also prompted me that each time I'm called to serve, I'll give all kinds and 1001 excuses not to. It's not that I cannot.. it's I just don't want to... (being rebellious kind of thing) :P. And the feeling is just not good. I guess it must be the HS prompting my conscience... Hehehe...

Being with Him for so many years.. since I was a child... I tend to take my salvation for granted... And also, everything else for granted.. I get to be comfy in my own "zone" and not wanting to move... But BuckTooth reminded me of how I first came down to Spore.. how my faith was strong, because undeniably, I can see the goodness of the Lord upon my life... and what happens now... I promised hubs that I will continue to serve Him no matter how busy or stressed I am.. but I failed.. tremendously... sigh...

I'm sorry Lord, for taking things for granted.. for letting this "blessing" (new job) rob you of my TAWG with you...I'm guilty.. as charged.. :|

After our cell session yesterday about the great commission... it all starts with a heart of a servant and a student... in all these, we must make time to fulfill the great commission... that's when the test of sacrifices comes in...

That's why, I'm really glad that the church camp right on time.. besides the fun part (yes, it's at Holiday Inn Cha-Am, Thailand) and also the shopping part (one night in Bangkok after that), I'm preparing myself, to really want to experience a fresh new start and be filled with Him.. and after that by God's grace and I believe, to be able to serve whole-heartedly not only in mission fields.. but right where I am needed... Amen!

Ok.. think I've said enough.... time to zzzZzz... I hope I don't stumble anyone with what I've poured out and shared here.. :)

God bless you.

Posted in: chit chat, feelings on 28 May 2008 at at 11:22 pm 0 kay-pohs  

Yesterday, being a public holiday, we had nothing to do, so we lazed around at home for almost the whole day. But hubs was bored, so he arranged for a movie watching session with the rest of our friends. Ken,Jon,Clone,hubs,me. We watched The Iron Man, with the digital version. We went to The Cathay (nearest MRT station: Dhoby Ghaut) and it was worth it! I love every bit of the movie. I shall buy the DVD when it's out because I don't mind watching it again.

After that, not knowing where to eat, hubs suggested... guess where? ChompChomp! He was the only one who has not been there, so there we went. Thank God Ken drove, else it'll be a bit of a hassle. (Yin & Jess & KL, when are you coming down to have our carrot cake again? )

After dinner, hubs mentioned he wanted to go to the library to borrow some books. As usual, he will borrow all the finance books (The Monkey Business book I mentioned was actually a finance book! Hahaha). Me, being the plain ol' me, has been, and will at least borrow one comic books. And the library here has just sooooooo many sets of comics. And most of them are all FULL sets. So I borrowed four books, out of which, three were comics (Dilbert, Calvin & Hobbes- my all time fave, Zits - mum would love this!) and was thinking of brushing up my photography skills, so I got this, Creative Photography - Nature & Outdoor. Oh well, this is one way I de-stress myself. Lots of things happened in the office today, too much for my brain to process (it's rather expected they want you to fly before you can even walk :P), so, comics has always been my fave way to de-stress myself. Don't care whether be it while sitting on the "throne", or while having meals, or in the bus, or in the clinic waiting for my turn, great way to r-e-l-a-x. Try it! :P (note: results vary for different individuals).

Posted in: feelings, food, Happenings, movies, work on 2 May 2008 at at 10:46 pm 2 kay-pohs