~ just the two of us ~

Dealing with demanding customers & stubborn suppliers =

Dealing with office politics which involves relationships =

That's how I'm feeling right now. For stress #1 I find it still manageable.. as after all, I knew what I was getting myself into before accepting the job... And no, don't get me wrong.. I have great support from my manager to ensure this task of mine is executed.. And though, customers are demanding.. but in actual fact, they're quite nice.. as they understand our position sometimes..

But stress # 2 is something that I really can't tolerate.. especially when it involves people who's sharing the same faith as I do. I am indirectly affected (the worse one is my boss, poor him), and yet, I feel the stress.... I pray for God's wisdom and favour to be upon me each time I am on my way to work, spending some TAWG (time alone with God), on how to deal with this kind of stress... giving me the right words to say, and guide me in my actions, especially when one of them is reporting to me...

This explains why I guess I have been in the "spiritual desert", the past few weeks... The situation is really eating me inside out.. until when I recalled BuckTooth telling me about someone who accepted a better job offer and he got busier at work, then he eventually stopped going to church and following Him. I'm just so afraid that I might fall into that similar situation, that, it made me stop and think that I should do something about my spiritual-desert situation. This also prompted me that each time I'm called to serve, I'll give all kinds and 1001 excuses not to. It's not that I cannot.. it's I just don't want to... (being rebellious kind of thing) :P. And the feeling is just not good. I guess it must be the HS prompting my conscience... Hehehe...

Being with Him for so many years.. since I was a child... I tend to take my salvation for granted... And also, everything else for granted.. I get to be comfy in my own "zone" and not wanting to move... But BuckTooth reminded me of how I first came down to Spore.. how my faith was strong, because undeniably, I can see the goodness of the Lord upon my life... and what happens now... I promised hubs that I will continue to serve Him no matter how busy or stressed I am.. but I failed.. tremendously... sigh...

I'm sorry Lord, for taking things for granted.. for letting this "blessing" (new job) rob you of my TAWG with you...I'm guilty.. as charged.. :|

After our cell session yesterday about the great commission... it all starts with a heart of a servant and a student... in all these, we must make time to fulfill the great commission... that's when the test of sacrifices comes in...

That's why, I'm really glad that the church camp right on time.. besides the fun part (yes, it's at Holiday Inn Cha-Am, Thailand) and also the shopping part (one night in Bangkok after that), I'm preparing myself, to really want to experience a fresh new start and be filled with Him.. and after that by God's grace and I believe, to be able to serve whole-heartedly not only in mission fields.. but right where I am needed... Amen!

Ok.. think I've said enough.... time to zzzZzz... I hope I don't stumble anyone with what I've poured out and shared here.. :)

God bless you.

Posted in: chit chat, feelings on 28 May 2008 at at 11:22 pm